I’m not doing well today. This morning I was not looking forward to work, but put myself through the motions. Best to get back into the routine, yes?
No. I Had a hard time thinking and concentrating today. Focus and memory were in and out. And I was disappointed that no one asked how I was. They know I was gone for 12 days, but nary a well-wish. I felt very lonely.
After work I ran errands to kill some time and stay active. And promptly began feeling more and more anxious and tearful. I reached out to understanding friends. I called my therapist. Still I feel alone and miserable. Thank goodness I’m not suicidal (yet?), but my antenna are up!
I just feel crappy inside and lonely and not adjusted to life outside. I want to feel better instead of accept that I feel bad and go on with life anyway (the Acceptance and Commitment Therapy way).
I hate feeling so terrible, miserable. I don’t have to like it to accept it.